Do you ever get to a point where you are no longer inspired, no longer interested in what used to interest you, no longer motivated by the same goals and plans? That is where I found my mind residing the past few months. I started out wondering what these feelings were, feelings that I did not want to explore or even admit their existence because I am the girl who has always known what she wanted. I walk around feeling proud to know exactly what I want in life while I see half of the people around me struggling to even navigate their day. I’d say I was blessed with strong passions that were able to be discovered at a young age, but what scared me was the idea of being unmotivated and uninterested for awhile. Was it boredom? Was it just a busy lifestyle? Or was I getting too comfortable? I’m still not sure, so I am flipping the tables and changing things up. After all, someone once told me, it’s insanity to do the same thing over and over expecting a different result.
I have a question for you, do you even know me? I have been at this for two years now and have neglected to let many people in. I share my life over the internet yet I don’t share my life at all, or at least things that really matter. I share with you what I want, in a way that is fabricated just enough to show you what I look like, where I live, and that I like fashion. WOW I don’t think I would be very interested either if I was my own follower. So, let’s meet for the first time again, I promise to be more transparent.
My name is Morgan Lillian Gaston, and contrary to popular belief, my last name is not Lillian, although I wouldn’t mind because I love my middle name. It was passed down from my Great Grandma and I plan to pass it down to my own daughter one day-which will not be for awhile, ya girl has dreams and goals to achieve before then! Sorry mom and dad, the days of watching your grandchildren playing soccer will have to wait.
I am 20 years old, living in Queen Anne, Washington dreaming of a New York lifestyle, but honestly, Seattle is home and I can’t imagine leaving. My best friend Payton and I live together in a 900 square foot apartment that is basically paid for by our souls because rent is so damn expensive. Never does a holiday pass that we don’t decorate for, including Valentine’s Day and Saint Patrick’s day that is just around the corner. Also, often times we are mistaken for a florist due to the amount of flowers we keep out.
I am a student at Seattle Pacific University where I am studying Fashion Merchandising, Business, and Marketing and I am currently excelling at not making friends and socializing; the college scene and I really haven’t hit it off. That being said, I like to keep my circle small. I value a few close friends over a whole sorority house of girls. I invest myself into very few people, but when I do, they get everything and all of me.
I am very introverted and struggle to build relationships and talk to people. I have worked on this a lot the past two years and I have made leaps and bounds, but I am still very reserved and you will never catch me answering a question out loud in class. Contrary to this however, I am actually a very open person. I like to go deep and talk about things that matter, as long as someone else begins the conversation. You can also count me out for public speaking.
I am infatuated with traveling and seeing the world. There is nothing more important to me than embracing other cultures and experiencing places outside of America. Don’t get me wrong, I love the USA, but I would hate to be so naive to think that everything I need to know and see is right at home.
I am in a long term relationship that began during high school. Keegan and I started out as best friends in middle school, and I guess a guy and a girl can’t be best friends for long without things evolving…or maybe that was just us, who knows?! I don’t post about him much and often I get weird comments about if we are still together or not because there’s part of me that wants to keep my personal life separate from the whole blog and fashion thing, but I get hella likes on instagram with photos with him so maybe I’ll post a little more about him 😉
So, that’s me condensed into about 700 words. It’s not everything, but it’s something to get us started on the right foot. I am excited to begin again and allow the lines and barriers to be crossed, let my creativity loose, step away from the cliches, and pretty much do whatever the hell I want, as long as it challenges me, invokes me, and sparkes a fire within me. Let’s not make this just another fashion blog, let’s make it a place that compels us, pushes us to be fearless, and allows us to be inspired. That won’t happen on my own, you are as much apart of this as I am.
Photos courtesy of Luba Kochubey.
This was such an amazing post! Just wanted to say I love your new site and got sucked in reading like 5 different posts haha keep it up, you’re doing great 🙂🖤
Ah thank you Heather!! I’m so happy it’s finally finished. I have loved following along with your blog xoxo
Lovely photos and great post Morgan!
Thank you so much for checking out my new site Andjela-it means the world! xx
I just stumbled upon your site, but I LOVE everything about this post!! I experienced a similar epiphany a few months ago as well, where I just wasn’t inspired by the content I was producing anymore. I was posting about what I thought other people would be interested in, not what I truly wanted to talk about…once I actually started sharing more about my personal life and being myself, I realized that I’m actually having more success too! Good for you realizing that there’s more to blogging than just the fashion side of it. Also, beautiful photos! xx
Holly, thank you SO much. I am so glad you can relate to this, it’s really encouraging. It was such a hard place to be in, but I am SO happy to be on a genuine track that shows who I am, not just pretty pictures and shallow content. Not that pretty pictures are a bad thing 😉 P.S just checked out your blog-LOVE. Also found ya on Insta xx